We broke up , Again.

WE LIVE AND WORK TOGETher,
sound awful? well it is. I embraced it for a few weeks, today everything fell apart, he said he is quitting his job, moving out of our apartment.
We fight over and over, over everything. Its ridiculous. there was little to no love left between us, we became consumed with crushing the other person,

I'm fucking sad, i want to go home and eat the whole world, then i want to sleep forever.
I'm really tired of this. I want it to be over, i want him to go away, i am so tired of fighting. I don't want him anymore, i can't ever look at him in the same way again.
This child in a bony adult body will not rest until I'm emotionally and mentally destroyed. He has been calling my cell, my office, email, chat non stop for the last 3 hrs, getting our friends involved, however i'm guilty of that as well--- but i am hanging up ignoring and trying to get thru this and be productive.
I'm really tired. We were supposed to go to the cottage, we started fighting, couldn't stop fighting now its my fault that none of our friends wanted to go anymore.

THe fact that his father is my boss, and the owner of the company we work at, is not as bad as it could seem. The ex has yelled loudly at me in the office, made disparaging remarks infront of coworkers, willfully damaged projects i've been working on.
He is trying to get his father to fire me, however, i am valuable, where he is not, and everytime he sees I'm excelling or succeeding he tries to start a fight with me.

I had truly high hopes for the future of this org, now i'm just looking for another job.

THere is no way i can go on like this, he wants to see my spirit broken and my heart crushed. I actually hate him for what he's done.

magical apartment do-over

me: I'm trapped! I've lost all direction in my life! Don't you see? If my dining room looked like this everything that has ever possibly gone wrong in my life would completely rectify itself.

the man: Seriously? You just need a plan. Well, you know, like a plan.

me: You, sir, are correct. Ooh, did you see this one? Look. It's for sale.


the man: You can write it down. Huh.

me: What? What. The print, the shape....Fine! God! Just say you don't like it so I can move on! Oh, these are pretty.

vloggin'

Hayyyyyy,

Gonna try out a new format. video. Watch me alienate people!

Nut bar in a nut shell

Dear Friends

trying to mail letters, the old timey way, transitioning between fretting and bliss. considerations of what to start, and where to start it. also when. WWW

xo